So - really need to stop starting my posts with "so" - as like, one or two of you may know, I write for the school newspaper.
Well, technically I don't write for them considering their first issue is supposedly coming out at the end of this month and no one's started writing articles yet.
Anyways, I think I'm going to drop out. Here's why: (Yes, I'm venting again)
1) They rejected my idea.
Yeah, yeah, I know I sound like a little kid, but seriously. It's not cool. My idea was to write an article on teen suicide. And this is what they said about it "It's too serious." "It's too sensitive." "It's too depressing." "We don't want to scare people away with our first issue."
What the hell? This is exactly the kind of attitude suicidal teenager need -NOT! Honestly, I've had suicidal issues before, and quite frankly if I went to someone for help and they were like "Oh, we can't help you because it's a sensitive subject." (which basically means "We don't want to help you because we're scared of suicidal teenagers") I would probably be dead right now.
Which is why I want this bullshit to stop. Which is why I joined the school newspaper. So I could raise awareness about this kind of stuff and help make it stop!
But nobody gives a shit. It's the truth. I'm gonna have to face it sooner or later. AND IT REALLY PISSES ME OFF but I'm just going to have to live with it.
Okay, I tried it, and I can't live with it. SERIOUSLY THERE ARE SO MANY FUCKING KIDS OUT THERE WHO ARE BULLIED EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY WHO ARE SO CLOSE TO KILLING THEMSELVES AND THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO AND THEY DON'T WANT TO REACH OUT TO ANYBODY SO WE NEED TO HELP THESE KIDS. THEY AREN'T GOING TO SPEAK UP BECAUSE THEY KNOW NOBODY GIVES A SHIT. WE NEED TO SHOW THEM THAT WE DO GIVE A SHIT! GIVE A FUCKING SHIT PEOPLE!
Sorry. Really passionate subject. Let's move on now :)
2) They're really exclusive.
My sister's always telling me that wherever I go in life, things will always be exclusive. But really, on the school newspaper there are less than 30 of us, so we really should be sticking together. But today, I was alone, since none of my friends could make it, so I ended up sitting in a corner alone, though I really should be used to it by now. No one invited me to go sit with them. Though I guess I could've asked to sit with someone, but ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ like I said up there nobody gives a shit. Even though this is a different subject people still don't give a shit.
3) They're extremely disorganized.
There's one girl who's in charge of the whole newspaper, which I don't really understand but oh well. There's a teacher who watches over her but he really doesn't do anything. So this girl is all like "e-mail me your ideas and I'll let you know if it's a yes or no". So I'm like, okay, I'll e-mail her. So I e-mail her my idea on Saturday I think it was and I wait. And get nothing. And wait. And still get nothing. So I keep checking up until the day before our next meeting (which was yesterday) and I check my e-mail again. NO-FUCKING-THING! I send her the same e-mail again adding a message that was something like this "I didn't think you got my e-mail so I sent it again.... I get that you're busy since you have a lot of people to e-mail back but I'd really appreciate it if you could get around to e-mailing me back. Thanks." Kind of bitchy, I know, but what else am I to do?
And it's not even like it's the wrong e-mail address. Everyone who's a part of the newspaper gets e-mails from her every week reminding them about upcoming meetings. And my friends all get replies back, so I don't know what this is.
Okay. Well. She did e-mail me back. But really late at night. Which isn't very nice. I mean, I go to bed quite early and I don't have time to check it in the morning. So yeah. But still.
What am I supposed to write about? Dammit! I need to get with my photographer and talk to her.
Ugh. I'd rather be doing Slam Poetry right now. That overlaps with the school newspaper meetings so that's why I couldn't do it in the first place. But yeah.
I have an idea for a novel though. Which sucks cause I have another idea for a novel and an idea for a short story and I should really get those sorted out soon so I can have some kind of organization.
